Job Interview Tomorrow!!!!

This week ive applied for like over 50 jobs on seek!!! anyways today i was really started to get the shits cause i never hear anything back from them at all, not even a rejection letter or nothing!!! BUT then i got a phone call, was private number so i wasnt gonna answer it BUT i did and it was a guy asking me to go in for a job interview tomorrow :) YAY It would be an awesome job to, so im just hoping i can get it!!! the other exciting thing was that i realised all my nice pants are way to big for me :) so i went shopping and bought a nice new pair of dark gray dress pants, in a size 20!!!! YAY considering when i started ww in Feb in pants like that even a size 26 wouldnt fit me! I WAS SOO EXCITIED!!!

Its been raining here all day and i just hope it stopped tomorrow because i gotta the train into the city for my interview and i dont wanna turn up dripping wet looking like a dag!! thats a real good look huh!!!!

Been studying like crazy for exams!! Gotta do some more tomorrow before the interview, then Friday ill be heading up to mums for my lil brothers birthday and my exams up there on Monday and next Friday!! THEN i was hoping it would be holidays BUT noooooo i found out for my financial advising course i have an assignment due the 18th DEC!!!!!!!!!! i mean who has assignments due that close to christmas!! WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT!! its just never ending!!!

Tonight i gotta do some more study and organise myself for this interview!! im gettin really nervous actually :( :( :( :( usually i dont, but i really want this job! but then agian if i dont get it, its not the end of the world hehe i dont NEED it so thats always a good thing hehehe :)

Food has been goin good so far this week so im really hoping for a good loss this week! actually i NEED one this week after my HUGE gain last week hahaha

ARRRGGGHHHHH!!

I hate myself so much right now!! i had 3 great weeks, then i go away for a week and no shit put on 5.4kg in just over a week!! I MEAN WTF??? how is that possible!!!!! i feel like crying!!! :( :( :( :( :( i just wanna get under 120 badly but everytime i get close i fuck it up and go up like 10kg!!! :( :( ARRGGGGGHHHHHHH

I know i had a bad week but really 5.4kg is just crazy!!! Anyways im feeling like shit now but on the bright side im back on track today and am determined to stay on track until at least christmas!!! ive set myself a christmas and new years challenge! 199.9kg by christmas and 119 by new years day! So ill see how i go, its not gonna be easy, as im goin away again on friday for my lil brothers birthday and my exams etc! then with christmas comin up there is alot of celebrations goin on!!! BUT its not excuse for bad eating!!! so im gonna try my hardest!! its all i can do, gotta get serious because i know i can do it when i try!!

Anyways off to study for exams! i feel soooo FAT and YUKKY today :( :( :(

weigh in day :)

Today was weigh in and after my huge loss week and being ttom i wasnt expecting much so when i jumped on the scales and realised i had lost 2.5kg i was sooooo happy :) YAY 2.5kg :P now i really feel back on track, i really needed a good loss this week!!

Next week im goin away and altho i know food wont be a problem, i know alcohol will, im catching up with some friends, and i know we will be goin out drinking, and then its my mums birthday so drinking again :P but other then alcohol im gonna be really good :) only problem is when i have alcohol i never lose weight, even if its a tiny of alcohol :( but oh well thats ok :)

Cup day tomorrow, dont think we are doin anything, have to find out this afternoon when my bf gets home from work before i work out what im gonna do :) either way will be fun :)

Im cooking satay chicken tonight for dinner YUMMMY havnt tired this recipe before so ill see how it goes :) sounds great tho :)

a wonderful day!

Today was a wonderful day!! Well technically to start with it was pretty crap! but now im sittin here thinking what a lovely day(maybe thats because its over) hehehe. I spent all day doin my assignment actaully and i was gettin nowhere just couldnt do it, so in the end i got the shits and sent off anyways hahaha i know its wrong but hey at least its handed in now so i got nothing to worry about! and believe me it feels sooooooo god damn good to have it done! it was my last assignment for the year!!! I only have 2 exams left at the end of nov then HOLIDAYS YAY YAY YAY YAY

Anyways so the past few days ive been sittin here at the table slaving away at my assignment and it was really gettin to me, BUT then this afternoon my bf comes in from work with a huge bunch of the most beautiful flowers ive ever seen :) :) :) :) awwww hes such a sweetie!!!! ill post some pics, they are gorgeous! so bright and colourful! exactly what i needed to brighten my day :) im so lucky to have a wonderful bf hehehe

On the weight loss front, all is good still :) im very happy with myself actaully! obviously i havnt had time for my walks but my food intake has been great! and lots of water and yeah all is goin good :)

Me and my bf are off to see John Edward next week! im so excited its gonna be so good! then im off to Bathurst to visit my friends, then over to goulburn to see my mum for her birthday, then back to Melb to study for exams!! oooh its never ending!!! hehehe but i aint complaining i like keeping busy!!

Anyways umm i think thats all!!!! Im sooo bored now that my assignment is done, thats all ive been doin for days and days! but gotta love being bored sometimes!! see my beautiful flowers :)

Finally back on track!!

Ok so this week has been my best week in a long time!! i realised im abotu the same weigh now as i was in July :( what a waste of time!!! So ive got my butt back into gear!!! Had my first weigh today and lost 4.4kg this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY for me! i was so excited!!!

Anyways now i have an assignment thats due tonight :( and is no where near finished :( im gonna be up all night doin it and its still gonna be late!! but good thing is its my last assignment for the year!! only 2 exams, then im free(well for a few months) YAY love uni holidays, 3 months holidays!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY

Anyways just wanted to write a quick post saying i had the best week and how happy i am :) gotta get back to this bloody assignment :( BOOOOOOOOO

RAID goin well :)

Ok so yesterday was day 1 of the RAID i started on the ww board and i had a perfect day :) YAY for me!!! Im hoping today is as good!

So far so good anyways i had strawberries and vanilla yoghurt for breakfast and im gonna have a toasted multigrain bread roll with ham and cheese for lunch yummmmmmy :)

I got lots of uni work to do :( got 2 more assignments, then gotta get ready for exams! Anyways just wanted to let everyone know that gettin back on track is certainly goin well so far :) just gotta keep it up for the rest of the week, rest of the month and just keep on goin! i really wanna make it to my 30kg lost!!! i been stuck between 17 and 24kg lost for ages now so its times to do something about it!!!!!

Seans Birthday at Crown

Here i am :)

ok so ive been away for a few weeks, for the first week i was actaully away, and the rest ive just been WAY off track :( I havnt even weighed myself for like 3 weeks or something and i wasnt even game :( ive just been soooo bad! I jumped back on the ww site tonight and joined up for a RAID that im gonna be starting tomorrow because i need to get my big fat arse back into gear before i put on all this weight again and possibly more!! :(

I hope it gets me back on track cause i weighed myself today for the first time in ages and have put on ALOT, im back up to 129.6kg :( so from now on i mean business!! it has to be done!! Anyways Bathurst was fantastic :) shame holden lost tho :( BOOOOOOO but i had lots of fun :) It was my bfs birthday this weekend just gone, so i took him away to crown towers in the city, stayed in a very posh expensive room(700 a night) haha but was nice and well worth it :) we had a great time just realxing and doin nothing :) ill post some pics soon :)

So here to a great week of Raiding :P hehehe ill post each day to let u all know how i go!! Tomorrow is the new beginning i need :)

Lots of stuff

Ok so today was the first weigh ive had in 3 weeks!!! I put on 1.2kg since my last weigh in which was 2 weeks ago, but i also weighed myself on thursday and ive lost 2.5kg since thursday :) so im really happy about that!! im back on track and ready to keep goin!! this month is gonna be great(i hope) actually its gonna be hard because this week i have an exam on thursday, then im off to bathurst for the V8s :) will be hard to resist temptation then! then my friend is comin down for a few days and we will be doin lots of shopping and probably some drinking etc so ill try and be as good as i can be!! Then middle of the month is my bfs birthday, i wanna plan something nice, like go away or something, but it depends if he has to work or not! BUT im determined to try my hardest and not let all these things get in the way :) Oh plus i have millions of assignments due this month :( its hard to study and not munch hehehe so ill see how i go :P These all sound like excuses to slip up a bit BUT not this time, im determined to prove i can do it even with all these lil distractions in the way!!

Im so excitied about goin away to the V8s this weekend, only problem is i cant enjoy my excitiment cause i have to worry about studying for my exam :( its stressing me out hehe! then once i get back i have 2 HUGE assignments to do but my friend is gonna be visiting :( thats stressing me out to!!! oh well ill get thru it hehehe :)

Anyways best go back to study and probably go do the washing up :P need something to do in my study breaks hahaha

Holiday Pics

hey everyone(if anyone is still reading heheh)

Ok im back from holidays(again) and once again i stuffed up my diet ARRRRGGHHH the past 2 nearlly 3 weeks ive just been eating crap and more crap :( I think im back on track today, tracking everything, and im hoping i can stay on track i just need to get these stupid scales moving in the right direction(downwards)!!!!!!

Next Thursday i have an exam in the city and i have to spend lots of time studying for it!! then im off to Bathurst for the V8s YAY :) cant wait!!! Me and my mum are gonna go for the weekend, then a friend of mine is gonna come back to melb with me :) so lots of shopping hehe

Anyways my holiday was great(ill post sme pics) We heading up to Lakes entrance, then along the VIC/NSW coast up to edan, and merimbula and stayed a few nights in mollymook(its my fav places in the whole world) hehe we stayed in a lovely penthouse suite with the most gorgeous views over the beach, only like 10m from the beach to, right across the road :) was very nice. Then we heading to my mums in goulburn and back down to albury for a night before heading back to melb :) was really fun.

Im starting to think i need to stop goin away so much because i just cant stick to my diet when im away, but then i thought no thats the problem, the problem is i need to learn how eat healthy when life gets in the way hehe i cant use holidays or visitors as an excuse for eating junk!! So from now on im gonna see how i go with everything life throws in my way hehe. Bathurst race weekend should be alright, as ill take my food to the track, i wont be drinking much alcohol, maybe a few drinks over the whole weekend :) And when my friend comes back down we can still enjoy healthy meals together and while we are out shopping i can make better choices! So lets see how i go :)

ARRRGGGHH uni work sux :(

Ok well i feel like this week is never ending! ive spent the whole week doin assignments :( Both were due yesterday and i finished one just in time and handed it in yesterday, and had to spend today doin the other one. I have just handed it in(a day late) :( but oh well better then nothing at least its done.

But thats just the beginning of it! we are goin away next week for a week cause my bf has annual leave and then once i get back i have to get straight back into the work and study for an exam i have on the 4th oct, which happens to be RACE WEEKEND!!! so straight after my exam i have to go up to bathurst for the races and also need to get my car registered while im there cause i havnt changed it over to VIC yet!! then once i get back i have 2 assignments both due on the 16th Oct and then another on 24th and another on the 26th :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( GOD DAMN! thats what i get for doin 2 fulltime courses at once hehehe

But im very proud of myself becaues altho ive been majorily stressed about these assignments and been spending hours and hours doin them i have still stuck to my weight watching hehe YAY me!!! But i checked and the scales havnt moved much, but i know that i dont usually lose weight in times of major stress hehehe so be it, just a part of life huh!

Ok well im off the browse the net and relax and watch some tv, oh such small things that ive missed all week(just havnt had time) hehehehe

YAY it worked :) heres the pics

Gold Coast :)

We had the best time at the gold coast, just wish i would have stayed longer hehehe. We timed it perfectly as we just missed all the bad weather they had up there! got the day after the beaches reopened and the weather was perfect the whole time we where there :)

The apartment we stayed in was lovely, on the 14th floor amazing views from the balcony and just across the road from the beach and only a few blocks from surfers paradise shopping :) We did lots of shopping, also went to harbour town to the factory outlets!

Oh while we were there we also went to see a Psychic, was VERY interesting hehe everything she told me was GREAT!! so i just hope shes right hehehe

ARRRGGGG im trying to put my gold coast pics on here but the stupid slide thing is being GAY! i just spent like over an hour uploading like 50 photos and now it wont work :( :( :( ill try again later, u might get to see some soon hehehe

back from holidays

Ok so im back from my holidays(which lasted 2 weeks) The wedding i went to wasnt so great, the dress made me look fat, ugly and pregnant(which i am not) it was truely the ugliest dress ive ever seen!!!! But i was goin soooo well, the first week away i ate really well! Breakfast was fruit or ceral or toast, sandwiches for lunch and just normal chicken/steak and vege for dinner! which i thought was great since i was eating out every single meal!! But then the second week i just crazy!! It was like my body turned into a fat guzzling monster!!! AARRRGGG. But anyways the point is im home now and back on track today, i went to weigh myself so i knew my new starting point BUT my scales wnt work!! they are broken!!! DAMN IT, now im gonna have to get new ones this afternoon, so im not gonna be to sure whether my weight gain will be from my eating or from the new scales! probably both hahahahah I weighed myself a few days ago and seems i have put on at least 5kg in 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!! i just hope it comes off easily now im back home