Job Interview Tomorrow!!!!

This week ive applied for like over 50 jobs on seek!!! anyways today i was really started to get the shits cause i never hear anything back from them at all, not even a rejection letter or nothing!!! BUT then i got a phone call, was private number so i wasnt gonna answer it BUT i did and it was a guy asking me to go in for a job interview tomorrow :) YAY It would be an awesome job to, so im just hoping i can get it!!! the other exciting thing was that i realised all my nice pants are way to big for me :) so i went shopping and bought a nice new pair of dark gray dress pants, in a size 20!!!! YAY considering when i started ww in Feb in pants like that even a size 26 wouldnt fit me! I WAS SOO EXCITIED!!!

Its been raining here all day and i just hope it stopped tomorrow because i gotta the train into the city for my interview and i dont wanna turn up dripping wet looking like a dag!! thats a real good look huh!!!!

Been studying like crazy for exams!! Gotta do some more tomorrow before the interview, then Friday ill be heading up to mums for my lil brothers birthday and my exams up there on Monday and next Friday!! THEN i was hoping it would be holidays BUT noooooo i found out for my financial advising course i have an assignment due the 18th DEC!!!!!!!!!! i mean who has assignments due that close to christmas!! WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT!! its just never ending!!!

Tonight i gotta do some more study and organise myself for this interview!! im gettin really nervous actually :( :( :( :( usually i dont, but i really want this job! but then agian if i dont get it, its not the end of the world hehe i dont NEED it so thats always a good thing hehehe :)

Food has been goin good so far this week so im really hoping for a good loss this week! actually i NEED one this week after my HUGE gain last week hahaha

ARRRGGGHHHHH!!

I hate myself so much right now!! i had 3 great weeks, then i go away for a week and no shit put on 5.4kg in just over a week!! I MEAN WTF??? how is that possible!!!!! i feel like crying!!! :( :( :( :( :( i just wanna get under 120 badly but everytime i get close i fuck it up and go up like 10kg!!! :( :( ARRGGGGGHHHHHHH

I know i had a bad week but really 5.4kg is just crazy!!! Anyways im feeling like shit now but on the bright side im back on track today and am determined to stay on track until at least christmas!!! ive set myself a christmas and new years challenge! 199.9kg by christmas and 119 by new years day! So ill see how i go, its not gonna be easy, as im goin away again on friday for my lil brothers birthday and my exams etc! then with christmas comin up there is alot of celebrations goin on!!! BUT its not excuse for bad eating!!! so im gonna try my hardest!! its all i can do, gotta get serious because i know i can do it when i try!!

Anyways off to study for exams! i feel soooo FAT and YUKKY today :( :( :(

weigh in day :)

Today was weigh in and after my huge loss week and being ttom i wasnt expecting much so when i jumped on the scales and realised i had lost 2.5kg i was sooooo happy :) YAY 2.5kg :P now i really feel back on track, i really needed a good loss this week!!

Next week im goin away and altho i know food wont be a problem, i know alcohol will, im catching up with some friends, and i know we will be goin out drinking, and then its my mums birthday so drinking again :P but other then alcohol im gonna be really good :) only problem is when i have alcohol i never lose weight, even if its a tiny of alcohol :( but oh well thats ok :)

Cup day tomorrow, dont think we are doin anything, have to find out this afternoon when my bf gets home from work before i work out what im gonna do :) either way will be fun :)

Im cooking satay chicken tonight for dinner YUMMMY havnt tired this recipe before so ill see how it goes :) sounds great tho :)