ARRRGGGHHHHH!!

I hate myself so much right now!! i had 3 great weeks, then i go away for a week and no shit put on 5.4kg in just over a week!! I MEAN WTF??? how is that possible!!!!! i feel like crying!!! :( :( :( :( :( i just wanna get under 120 badly but everytime i get close i fuck it up and go up like 10kg!!! :( :( ARRGGGGGHHHHHHH

I know i had a bad week but really 5.4kg is just crazy!!! Anyways im feeling like shit now but on the bright side im back on track today and am determined to stay on track until at least christmas!!! ive set myself a christmas and new years challenge! 199.9kg by christmas and 119 by new years day! So ill see how i go, its not gonna be easy, as im goin away again on friday for my lil brothers birthday and my exams etc! then with christmas comin up there is alot of celebrations goin on!!! BUT its not excuse for bad eating!!! so im gonna try my hardest!! its all i can do, gotta get serious because i know i can do it when i try!!

Anyways off to study for exams! i feel soooo FAT and YUKKY today :( :( :(